I believe that everything happnes for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
Marilyn Monroe
Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. YOu have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what isn't, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give to you. Hopefully, people realize great things whe nthey come around and don't lose something real. Always fight until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.
Marian Mrowca
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Je Me Souviens
I love this song by Lara Fabian...we both loved it. here's the youtube link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6BZFz4wh5g
French...english translation
Je Me Souviens.....I remember
White lily flowers under a crystal blue
Walks in a star-shaped snow
Maples of colours of a fatal passion
I won't forget anything at all
I remember
Odours of a forest that a beautiful lake reveals
Reflections of a large fire on our pale faces
An intense light by boreal nights
I won't forget anything at all
I remember
I love your poems, your heart, your liberty
You are the only land where
My soul was placed
An accent nobody knows the secrets about
A French who springs in forgotten words
A inimitable way of singing
I won't forget anything at all
I remember
I love your blasphemies, your faith, your dignity
You are like an island
That we can't leave
I love your poems, your heart, your liberty
You are like an island
That we don't want to leave
Landscapes that mix with more than perfection
Pictures that nature won't repeat again
The impression of having entered the garden of peace
I won't forget anything at all
I return
Thursday, October 29, 2009
A new hope
In this moment of my life where I am constantly grinding my teeth, waiting for the outcome of something so utterly important to me, a recollection of a certain truth appeared to me.....
LOVE CONQUERS ALL
And after all that's been said and done, I know it to be the truth. The truth about man's very existence and it will be the saving grace of mine.
Love conquers all.....no matter how grand or how insignificant, war or peace, love always pulls through, even unto the very ends of the earth.
It really does.
LOVE CONQUERS ALL
And after all that's been said and done, I know it to be the truth. The truth about man's very existence and it will be the saving grace of mine.
Love conquers all.....no matter how grand or how insignificant, war or peace, love always pulls through, even unto the very ends of the earth.
It really does.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort
La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort. '
someone once quoted this to me a long time ago.
It is true, distance is difficult in a relationship. But for what it's worth, we've been doing pretty well in this relationship given the circumstances. There will always be another mountain to climb, always another ocean to cross.....but love conquers all.
Life is not perfect. The humans who live it is even less perfect....but we have something special within ourselves and that is forgiveness and compassion. The ability to forgive and to overlook a person's flaws is possible only through love.
And without love, what would this world be.
There are three things which are the bane in life......faith, hope and love....but amongst the three, love is the greatest of them all.
For what is a man's worth if he has not known love?
someone once quoted this to me a long time ago.
It is true, distance is difficult in a relationship. But for what it's worth, we've been doing pretty well in this relationship given the circumstances. There will always be another mountain to climb, always another ocean to cross.....but love conquers all.
Life is not perfect. The humans who live it is even less perfect....but we have something special within ourselves and that is forgiveness and compassion. The ability to forgive and to overlook a person's flaws is possible only through love.
And without love, what would this world be.
There are three things which are the bane in life......faith, hope and love....but amongst the three, love is the greatest of them all.
For what is a man's worth if he has not known love?
Monday, October 26, 2009
My all
A chanced encounter once saved my life. Saved who I am inside. Brought me new joy and happiness. It was supposed to be forever....it was supposed to go on forever. Didn't we say it was forever, through thick and thin?
But, alas, my world is crumbling down, falling and falling away. I am dead inside and only you can make me feel alive.....
If memories are all I'll have, that is not living the life we've envisioned at all.
I want more than memories....I want more than pictures...more than words.
I want the person more than anything else in the world....and it's killing me inside knowing that it may never ever be.
I am dying, fading away slowly as the days wears on.....
Slowly as the time ticks on without you.
How can I go on? How can I live my life as passionately as I used to, without you by my side.
Everything that we've been through, everything that we've shared.
Do you not know how important you are to me?
Do you not know how my world shines brighter than before with you in it?
This is all I have left, and all that I am.
I am left with nothing.
But, alas, my world is crumbling down, falling and falling away. I am dead inside and only you can make me feel alive.....
If memories are all I'll have, that is not living the life we've envisioned at all.
I want more than memories....I want more than pictures...more than words.
I want the person more than anything else in the world....and it's killing me inside knowing that it may never ever be.
I am dying, fading away slowly as the days wears on.....
Slowly as the time ticks on without you.
How can I go on? How can I live my life as passionately as I used to, without you by my side.
Everything that we've been through, everything that we've shared.
Do you not know how important you are to me?
Do you not know how my world shines brighter than before with you in it?
This is all I have left, and all that I am.
I am left with nothing.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Contemplations
Not too long ago many thoughts began running through my head, flittering playfully about in my mind. And the more they flitter, the more it seems as if a very pronounced headache was about to appear.
With so many conflicting problems and worries abounding, having been there for awhile now, it keeps pressing me and pushing me to the only direction I can see as to solving everything.
But it isn't going to be easy. The road less travelled is never easy.
And so begins the season of plans and schemes, not really sure if any of them is 100% foolproof.
It did seem scary at first. Very very scary. A new place...a foreign place. Will I be able to cope with the demands and whimps of such a life? Did I poccess it? So many questions.....questions which I could not even begun to answer.
Life here now is not that peachy. I am slowly slipping into my own reverie. Transending into my own dark and shadowy abyss. I am falling and falling into my own nothingness.
They pushed me so hard. They don't even know.
I need the sun.
I need to breathe.
I need to get away from it all.
Everyday I brace myself for more dread. More misery. More pain.
The pain that never seems to go away but only to drive itself deeper into my soul.
My soul....my precious soul.. How I saved you over and over....
I need to get out for my sanity. I sanity which is slowly dripping away like the drops of a waterfall which once was. Trickling slowly into the depths of the earth, into the soil where it disappears from existence.
But I have my sunshine, always shinning down upon me from above. Though dark clouds may hide you , you always managed to overcome them all.
So I give myself 2 years in hopes of greener pastures. Pastures where there are no wolves stalking me....waiting to pounce upon my every movement. Waiting...just waiting....for the right moment.
To a place where I can be with my sunshine eternally.
Also, (this is really beautifully written)
A quote from Colin Monteath's book 'Under A Sheltering Sky'
Chance encounters change lives. Close friends, passing aquaintances and even characters who emerge from old books often leave footprints across my heart. By opening mysterious doors, the influence of others has inadvertently altered the direction of my life.
With so many conflicting problems and worries abounding, having been there for awhile now, it keeps pressing me and pushing me to the only direction I can see as to solving everything.
But it isn't going to be easy. The road less travelled is never easy.
And so begins the season of plans and schemes, not really sure if any of them is 100% foolproof.
It did seem scary at first. Very very scary. A new place...a foreign place. Will I be able to cope with the demands and whimps of such a life? Did I poccess it? So many questions.....questions which I could not even begun to answer.
Life here now is not that peachy. I am slowly slipping into my own reverie. Transending into my own dark and shadowy abyss. I am falling and falling into my own nothingness.
They pushed me so hard. They don't even know.
I need the sun.
I need to breathe.
I need to get away from it all.
Everyday I brace myself for more dread. More misery. More pain.
The pain that never seems to go away but only to drive itself deeper into my soul.
My soul....my precious soul.. How I saved you over and over....
I need to get out for my sanity. I sanity which is slowly dripping away like the drops of a waterfall which once was. Trickling slowly into the depths of the earth, into the soil where it disappears from existence.
But I have my sunshine, always shinning down upon me from above. Though dark clouds may hide you , you always managed to overcome them all.
So I give myself 2 years in hopes of greener pastures. Pastures where there are no wolves stalking me....waiting to pounce upon my every movement. Waiting...just waiting....for the right moment.
To a place where I can be with my sunshine eternally.
Also, (this is really beautifully written)
A quote from Colin Monteath's book 'Under A Sheltering Sky'
Chance encounters change lives. Close friends, passing aquaintances and even characters who emerge from old books often leave footprints across my heart. By opening mysterious doors, the influence of others has inadvertently altered the direction of my life.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Exams
Today... my last exam.
I'm so happy!!
My sister is staying home too...recovering from her operation.
My brother is leaving to Canada on the 28th of June, which is pretty soon...
I am leaving to Malaysia in less than three weeks!!
I am looking for an apartment in Antwerpen. I went to this website, called www.studentkotweb.be, though I had some problems.
Firstly I don't know where I should stay. Where is the best place to stay for me? I prefer in the city, but my university will be in the suburbs of Antwerpen. That means I'll have to cycle everyday to the campus. My sisters (!) both recommended me to stay in the city. Annelies (who recently graduated) says if you live on campus, you only get to talk to these people who study medicine too. However if you live in the city centre, the chances are higher you get to meet more people. And if you have to spend the whole day with those people, she said you needn't see them again at night.
I guess it's her personal opinion, but I can understand what she means though.
So that's my first problem. I don't know what I should do.
When I first checked the website, it abounded with apartments. And I don't know Antwerpen that good, so how can I know the location is good?
I will have to see some apartments first. I must do that before I leave to Malaysia. I can ask my sister to accompany me. She knows more about these things too anyway.
Now there's only one hurdle left I have to overcome, which is the dreaded entrance exam. My piano exam was a success and so will be my school exams. Every exam was good, so I'm not worried at all (unlike other years when I wasn't sure if it was actually good or not).
I will have a lot to do the next few weeks [sigh].
I'm so happy!!
My sister is staying home too...recovering from her operation.
My brother is leaving to Canada on the 28th of June, which is pretty soon...
I am leaving to Malaysia in less than three weeks!!
I am looking for an apartment in Antwerpen. I went to this website, called www.studentkotweb.be, though I had some problems.
Firstly I don't know where I should stay. Where is the best place to stay for me? I prefer in the city, but my university will be in the suburbs of Antwerpen. That means I'll have to cycle everyday to the campus. My sisters (!) both recommended me to stay in the city. Annelies (who recently graduated) says if you live on campus, you only get to talk to these people who study medicine too. However if you live in the city centre, the chances are higher you get to meet more people. And if you have to spend the whole day with those people, she said you needn't see them again at night.
I guess it's her personal opinion, but I can understand what she means though.
So that's my first problem. I don't know what I should do.
When I first checked the website, it abounded with apartments. And I don't know Antwerpen that good, so how can I know the location is good?
I will have to see some apartments first. I must do that before I leave to Malaysia. I can ask my sister to accompany me. She knows more about these things too anyway.
Now there's only one hurdle left I have to overcome, which is the dreaded entrance exam. My piano exam was a success and so will be my school exams. Every exam was good, so I'm not worried at all (unlike other years when I wasn't sure if it was actually good or not).
I will have a lot to do the next few weeks [sigh].
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Finallyyyyyyyyy
It's been a long time since I posted my last post here. Yup, I know.
So that's why I decided today to update the blog a bit.
(I don't know if Yen will ever post a new one.)
Ok. What happened to me the last few months?
Not very very very much. First of all, I went to school. I'm starting to get sick of it...I don't know why. But in only 2 weeks, my exams will begin. And that means school will be OVER. GREAT!
But then I still won't be free. Noooooooooooooooooooooooo. I'll have to study for my idiotic 'entrance exam'. You need to pass this in order to be admitted. And I really want to study medicine, so first I will have to study very very hard. This exam is on the 7th of july.
The 8th of july is a very special day... Then I'll take a plane to... Malaysia!
Why on the 8th? Because that's the earliest I can go (due to the stupid exam). Otherwise I would have gone earlier...that's for sure!
(to be continued)
So that's why I decided today to update the blog a bit.
(I don't know if Yen will ever post a new one.)
Ok. What happened to me the last few months?
Not very very very much. First of all, I went to school. I'm starting to get sick of it...I don't know why. But in only 2 weeks, my exams will begin. And that means school will be OVER. GREAT!
But then I still won't be free. Noooooooooooooooooooooooo. I'll have to study for my idiotic 'entrance exam'. You need to pass this in order to be admitted. And I really want to study medicine, so first I will have to study very very hard. This exam is on the 7th of july.
The 8th of july is a very special day... Then I'll take a plane to... Malaysia!
Why on the 8th? Because that's the earliest I can go (due to the stupid exam). Otherwise I would have gone earlier...that's for sure!
(to be continued)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
euro pics =)
eat ur heart out
horsie!
antwerpen centraal..it's really beautiful...train station in case you're wondering
erm....what's this?
it's....kaye!
christmas treeee
kaye n vin in antwerpen by the giant handask kaye or vin for details if interested in the origins of that particular hand
in Bruges
in bruges too
monkey restauarnt in bruges
my fav pic of vin...also in bruges
in kasterlee...one of my fav pics
Friday, January 2, 2009
New post
I think it's time for a new post on this blog. It needs to be updated often. But Yen and I are mostly quite busy, so I think that's the reason why we sometimes forget to post a new message. But now I didn't forget, for I'm writing one now.
The last two weeks I have finally seen my dear Yen again! Everything was just perfect! I hope to see her again soon. I already miss her...It's not so easy without her. :(
But I will visit her this summer! I AM looking forward to this. (Even counting down!)
I can't wait for this to happen. I will be with her for TWO months. YAY
Anyway, a short while ago she asked me to do the following 'questionnaire'. I got tagged...but I think she's already forgotten about it. It's quite fun though, so that's why I do fill it out!
TAGGED BY YEN
1.How old are you? 17 (that's young, huh)
2.Are you single. Nope, I'm not. No need to contact me.
3.In what age do you think you’ll get married? Between 25 & 30. (if everything remains as it is now)
4.Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now? Yes. No doubts.
5.If not, who do you want to marry? I don't want to marry someone else.
6.Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding? I'm not really appealed to the traditional wedding. (In Belgium you almost only have these weddings.) So logically, I want a garden/beach wedding. Between these I do prefer a beach wedding.
7.Your ideal motif? Being happy together with the love of my life.
8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon? I don't know yet. Somewhere very beautiful to enjoy life.
9.How many guests do you think you’ll invite? Not too many. I rather invite fewer good friends than more casual friends.
10.Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding? It doesn't matter. Whether it's extravagant or simple doesn't affect the core meaning of 'a wedding'.
11.Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own? I'd make one up my own. I won't tell you what's inside yet...wait and see!
12.How many layers of cake do you want to have? LOTS.
13.Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place? I will have a reception at my own place. This is the most convenient. So I won't have trouble with the owners.
14.When do you want to get married, evening or morning? Evening.
15.You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors? Outdoors. (And no, the weather won't be bad on that particular day!)
16.Do you like a grand entrance for your bride? Of course.
17.Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?? I will let my dear bride decide upon this.
18.Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one? I don't really get the question. I just want the best one!
19.What age do you want to get married? Between 25 and 30.
20.Describe your ideal wife. She loves me as much as I love her. I can tell her everything and talk to her for hours without getting bored. After a longer period she is still as interesting to me as she was when I realized I loved her. She is beautiful, pretty, funny, sensitive, romantic, respectable, cute, honest and sweet. I am sure that you all do know her personally!
21.Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife? Normal. I can't imagine something else, sorry.
22.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding? Right after. No need to wait.
23.Money or household item? Anything you think that might please us.
24.Who will pay for the bills? This obviously depends on who's earning. The best is to have a shared bank account and pay the bills with this account.
25.Are you ready for married life? I'm not ready now. I first need to finish my studies at the university.
26.Will u always be true to your wife. Yes.
27.How many kids do u like? 2. One girl and one boy. The perfect combination.
28.Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding? Yup.
29.What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding? Only the best!
30.Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd? Why not?
The last two weeks I have finally seen my dear Yen again! Everything was just perfect! I hope to see her again soon. I already miss her...It's not so easy without her. :(
But I will visit her this summer! I AM looking forward to this. (Even counting down!)
I can't wait for this to happen. I will be with her for TWO months. YAY
Anyway, a short while ago she asked me to do the following 'questionnaire'. I got tagged...but I think she's already forgotten about it. It's quite fun though, so that's why I do fill it out!
TAGGED BY YEN
1.How old are you? 17 (that's young, huh)
2.Are you single. Nope, I'm not. No need to contact me.
3.In what age do you think you’ll get married? Between 25 & 30. (if everything remains as it is now)
4.Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now? Yes. No doubts.
5.If not, who do you want to marry? I don't want to marry someone else.
6.Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding? I'm not really appealed to the traditional wedding. (In Belgium you almost only have these weddings.) So logically, I want a garden/beach wedding. Between these I do prefer a beach wedding.
7.Your ideal motif? Being happy together with the love of my life.
8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon? I don't know yet. Somewhere very beautiful to enjoy life.
9.How many guests do you think you’ll invite? Not too many. I rather invite fewer good friends than more casual friends.
10.Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding? It doesn't matter. Whether it's extravagant or simple doesn't affect the core meaning of 'a wedding'.
11.Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own? I'd make one up my own. I won't tell you what's inside yet...wait and see!
12.How many layers of cake do you want to have? LOTS.
13.Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place? I will have a reception at my own place. This is the most convenient. So I won't have trouble with the owners.
14.When do you want to get married, evening or morning? Evening.
15.You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors? Outdoors. (And no, the weather won't be bad on that particular day!)
16.Do you like a grand entrance for your bride? Of course.
17.Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?? I will let my dear bride decide upon this.
18.Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one? I don't really get the question. I just want the best one!
19.What age do you want to get married? Between 25 and 30.
20.Describe your ideal wife. She loves me as much as I love her. I can tell her everything and talk to her for hours without getting bored. After a longer period she is still as interesting to me as she was when I realized I loved her. She is beautiful, pretty, funny, sensitive, romantic, respectable, cute, honest and sweet. I am sure that you all do know her personally!
21.Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife? Normal. I can't imagine something else, sorry.
22.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding? Right after. No need to wait.
23.Money or household item? Anything you think that might please us.
24.Who will pay for the bills? This obviously depends on who's earning. The best is to have a shared bank account and pay the bills with this account.
25.Are you ready for married life? I'm not ready now. I first need to finish my studies at the university.
26.Will u always be true to your wife. Yes.
27.How many kids do u like? 2. One girl and one boy. The perfect combination.
28.Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding? Yup.
29.What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding? Only the best!
30.Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd? Why not?
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