Sunday, November 22, 2009

I believe

I believe that everything happnes for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Marilyn Monroe


Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. YOu have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what isn't, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give to you. Hopefully, people realize great things whe nthey come around and don't lose something real. Always fight until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

Marian Mrowca

Friday, November 20, 2009

Heartless

Some people are just so heartless

Selfish, heartless

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Je Me Souviens

I love this song by Lara Fabian...we both loved it. here's the youtube link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6BZFz4wh5g

French...english translation

Je Me Souviens.....I remember

White lily flowers under a crystal blue
Walks in a star-shaped snow
Maples of colours of a fatal passion
I won't forget anything at all
I remember

Odours of a forest that a beautiful lake reveals
Reflections of a large fire on our pale faces
An intense light by boreal nights
I won't forget anything at all
I remember

I love your poems, your heart, your liberty
You are the only land where
My soul was placed

An accent nobody knows the secrets about
A French who springs in forgotten words
A inimitable way of singing
I won't forget anything at all
I remember

I love your blasphemies, your faith, your dignity
You are like an island
That we can't leave

I love your poems, your heart, your liberty
You are like an island
That we don't want to leave

Landscapes that mix with more than perfection
Pictures that nature won't repeat again
The impression of having entered the garden of peace
I won't forget anything at all
I return

Thursday, October 29, 2009

A new hope

In this moment of my life where I am constantly grinding my teeth, waiting for the outcome of something so utterly important to me, a recollection of a certain truth appeared to me.....

LOVE CONQUERS ALL

And after all that's been said and done, I know it to be the truth. The truth about man's very existence and it will be the saving grace of mine.

Love conquers all.....no matter how grand or how insignificant, war or peace, love always pulls through, even unto the very ends of the earth.

It really does.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort

La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort. '
someone once quoted this to me a long time ago.
It is true, distance is difficult in a relationship. But for what it's worth, we've been doing pretty well in this relationship given the circumstances. There will always be another mountain to climb, always another ocean to cross.....but love conquers all.

Life is not perfect. The humans who live it is even less perfect....but we have something special within ourselves and that is forgiveness and compassion. The ability to forgive and to overlook a person's flaws is possible only through love.

And without love, what would this world be.

There are three things which are the bane in life......faith, hope and love....but amongst the three, love is the greatest of them all.

For what is a man's worth if he has not known love?

Monday, October 26, 2009

My all

A chanced encounter once saved my life. Saved who I am inside. Brought me new joy and happiness. It was supposed to be forever....it was supposed to go on forever. Didn't we say it was forever, through thick and thin?

But, alas, my world is crumbling down, falling and falling away. I am dead inside and only you can make me feel alive.....
If memories are all I'll have, that is not living the life we've envisioned at all.
I want more than memories....I want more than pictures...more than words.
I want the person more than anything else in the world....and it's killing me inside knowing that it may never ever be.
I am dying, fading away slowly as the days wears on.....
Slowly as the time ticks on without you.

How can I go on? How can I live my life as passionately as I used to, without you by my side.
Everything that we've been through, everything that we've shared.
Do you not know how important you are to me?
Do you not know how my world shines brighter than before with you in it?

This is all I have left, and all that I am.
I am left with nothing.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Contemplations

Not too long ago many thoughts began running through my head, flittering playfully about in my mind. And the more they flitter, the more it seems as if a very pronounced headache was about to appear.

With so many conflicting problems and worries abounding, having been there for awhile now, it keeps pressing me and pushing me to the only direction I can see as to solving everything.

But it isn't going to be easy. The road less travelled is never easy.

And so begins the season of plans and schemes, not really sure if any of them is 100% foolproof.

It did seem scary at first. Very very scary. A new place...a foreign place. Will I be able to cope with the demands and whimps of such a life? Did I poccess it? So many questions.....questions which I could not even begun to answer.

Life here now is not that peachy. I am slowly slipping into my own reverie. Transending into my own dark and shadowy abyss. I am falling and falling into my own nothingness.

They pushed me so hard. They don't even know.

I need the sun.
I need to breathe.
I need to get away from it all.

Everyday I brace myself for more dread. More misery. More pain.
The pain that never seems to go away but only to drive itself deeper into my soul.

My soul....my precious soul.. How I saved you over and over....

I need to get out for my sanity. I sanity which is slowly dripping away like the drops of a waterfall which once was. Trickling slowly into the depths of the earth, into the soil where it disappears from existence.

But I have my sunshine, always shinning down upon me from above. Though dark clouds may hide you , you always managed to overcome them all.

So I give myself 2 years in hopes of greener pastures. Pastures where there are no wolves stalking me....waiting to pounce upon my every movement. Waiting...just waiting....for the right moment.
To a place where I can be with my sunshine eternally.


Also, (this is really beautifully written)
A quote from Colin Monteath's book 'Under A Sheltering Sky'

Chance encounters change lives. Close friends, passing aquaintances and even characters who emerge from old books often leave footprints across my heart. By opening mysterious doors, the influence of others has inadvertently altered the direction of my life.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Exams

Today... my last exam.
I'm so happy!!

My sister is staying home too...recovering from her operation.
My brother is leaving to Canada on the 28th of June, which is pretty soon...
I am leaving to Malaysia in less than three weeks!!

I am looking for an apartment in Antwerpen. I went to this website, called www.studentkotweb.be, though I had some problems.
Firstly I don't know where I should stay. Where is the best place to stay for me? I prefer in the city, but my university will be in the suburbs of Antwerpen. That means I'll have to cycle everyday to the campus. My sisters (!) both recommended me to stay in the city. Annelies (who recently graduated) says if you live on campus, you only get to talk to these people who study medicine too. However if you live in the city centre, the chances are higher you get to meet more people. And if you have to spend the whole day with those people, she said you needn't see them again at night.
I guess it's her personal opinion, but I can understand what she means though.
So that's my first problem. I don't know what I should do.
When I first checked the website, it abounded with apartments. And I don't know Antwerpen that good, so how can I know the location is good?
I will have to see some apartments first. I must do that before I leave to Malaysia. I can ask my sister to accompany me. She knows more about these things too anyway.
Now there's only one hurdle left I have to overcome, which is the dreaded entrance exam. My piano exam was a success and so will be my school exams. Every exam was good, so I'm not worried at all (unlike other years when I wasn't sure if it was actually good or not).
I will have a lot to do the next few weeks [sigh].

Saturday, June 13, 2009

I'm counting down already...

only 25 days more to goooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Finallyyyyyyyyy

It's been a long time since I posted my last post here. Yup, I know.
So that's why I decided today to update the blog a bit.
(I don't know if Yen will ever post a new one.)

Ok. What happened to me the last few months?
Not very very very much. First of all, I went to school. I'm starting to get sick of it...I don't know why. But in only 2 weeks, my exams will begin. And that means school will be OVER. GREAT!
But then I still won't be free. Noooooooooooooooooooooooo. I'll have to study for my idiotic 'entrance exam'. You need to pass this in order to be admitted. And I really want to study medicine, so first I will have to study very very hard. This exam is on the 7th of july.
The 8th of july is a very special day... Then I'll take a plane to... Malaysia!
Why on the 8th? Because that's the earliest I can go (due to the stupid exam). Otherwise I would have gone earlier...that's for sure!

(to be continued)

Sunday, January 25, 2009

euro pics =)

eat ur heart out
horsie!

antwerpen centraal..it's really beautiful...train station in case you're wondering


erm....what's this?

it's....kaye!


christmas treeee
kaye n vin in antwerpen by the giant hand
ask kaye or vin for details if interested in the origins of that particular hand


in Bruges



in bruges too


monkey restauarnt in bruges


my fav pic of vin...also in bruges



in kasterlee...one of my fav pics

Friday, January 2, 2009

New post

I think it's time for a new post on this blog. It needs to be updated often. But Yen and I are mostly quite busy, so I think that's the reason why we sometimes forget to post a new message. But now I didn't forget, for I'm writing one now.
The last two weeks I have finally seen my dear Yen again! Everything was just perfect! I hope to see her again soon. I already miss her...It's not so easy without her. :(
But I will visit her this summer! I AM looking forward to this. (Even counting down!)
I can't wait for this to happen. I will be with her for TWO months. YAY

Anyway, a short while ago she asked me to do the following 'questionnaire'. I got tagged...but I think she's already forgotten about it. It's quite fun though, so that's why I do fill it out!

TAGGED BY YEN

1.How old are you? 17 (that's young, huh)

2.Are you single. Nope, I'm not. No need to contact me.

3.In what age do you think you’ll get married? Between 25 & 30. (if everything remains as it is now)

4.Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now? Yes. No doubts.

5.If not, who do you want to marry? I don't want to marry someone else.

6.Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding? I'm not really appealed to the traditional wedding. (In Belgium you almost only have these weddings.) So logically, I want a garden/beach wedding. Between these I do prefer a beach wedding.

7.Your ideal motif? Being happy together with the love of my life.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon? I don't know yet. Somewhere very beautiful to enjoy life.

9.How many guests do you think you’ll invite? Not too many. I rather invite fewer good friends than more casual friends.

10.Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding? It doesn't matter. Whether it's extravagant or simple doesn't affect the core meaning of 'a wedding'.

11.Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own? I'd make one up my own. I won't tell you what's inside yet...wait and see!

12.How many layers of cake do you want to have? LOTS.

13.Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place? I will have a reception at my own place. This is the most convenient. So I won't have trouble with the owners.

14.When do you want to get married, evening or morning? Evening.

15.You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors? Outdoors. (And no, the weather won't be bad on that particular day!)

16.Do you like a grand entrance for your bride? Of course.

17.Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?? I will let my dear bride decide upon this.

18.Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one? I don't really get the question. I just want the best one!

19.What age do you want to get married? Between 25 and 30.

20.Describe your ideal wife. She loves me as much as I love her. I can tell her everything and talk to her for hours without getting bored. After a longer period she is still as interesting to me as she was when I realized I loved her. She is beautiful, pretty, funny, sensitive, romantic, respectable, cute, honest and sweet. I am sure that you all do know her personally!

21.Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife? Normal. I can't imagine something else, sorry.

22.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding? Right after. No need to wait.

23.Money or household item? Anything you think that might please us.

24.Who will pay for the bills? This obviously depends on who's earning. The best is to have a shared bank account and pay the bills with this account.

25.Are you ready for married life? I'm not ready now. I first need to finish my studies at the university.

26.Will u always be true to your wife. Yes.

27.How many kids do u like? 2. One girl and one boy. The perfect combination.

28.Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding? Yup.

29.What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding? Only the best!

30.Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd? Why not?

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Tagged by bren

I got tagged by breeeeendaaaaa.

1.How old are you?
guess

2.Are you single.
why? you want my number? haha

3.In what age do you think you’ll get married?
when i'm 1000 years old...or maybe soon...we do'nt know what the future holds...but we know what it feels like...

4.Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
i really hope so...i really love him =)

5.If not, who do you want to marry?
me, myself and i...gotta love urself baby haha

6.Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
i want a beach wedding....serious.

7.Your ideal motif?
to find a balance in my life and to achieve happiness whatever the situation.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
the beach!!!

9.How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
whatever i feel at the moment when writing the invitation cards..so guys..if u wanna come to my super cool sexy beach wedding....u know what to do...hahahaha

10.Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
you know what...it doesn't matter if it's extravagant or simple....THE FOOD MUST BE GOOD! how many times u went to a wedding to eat cold stale food cooked for like...at least 2 hours before??? did u enjoy yourselves then? did ya?

11.Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
inpromptu...just go with the flow....just say what u r feeling at that moment when u r with the one u love infront of everyone...

12.How many layers of cake do you want to have?
gosh....of course 10..i want 10...did u read that kaye? it's 10! all white 10 layers with icing pillars!!
start working on it kaye....hahahahahh

13.Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
my own beachside house.....duh (rent free) hehe

14.When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
since it's at the beach....evening...the sunset...oooooo i should open a wedding shop..seriously.

15.You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Outdoors..in the lovely sea breeze and the waves gently crashing against the shore

16.Do you like a grand entrance for your bride?
i'm not a lesbian

17.Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding??
you mean the world to me...that's at the top of my head now, but i bet it'll change in the future..i think i'd rather compose my own song....

18.Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
hello???? a FUN one???? duh!!

19.What age do you want to get married?
ok....hmm...if possible, before 30..coz seriously...i want my pictures to look really glam...and i can't do that if my skin isn't in tip top youthful condition can i?

20.Describe your ideal husband/wife.
he's romantic, sensitive, he really loves me and cares from the bottom of his heart. he'll always be there for me no matter what. i can talk to him freely and hang out with him for hours.... =)

21.Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
normal stuff pls...

22.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
right after...i don't think i can wait hehe...besides...we'd have a busy 'honeymoon' schedule...so...erm....yea...better to start asap don't u think?

23.Money or household item?
money...then i'll go buy the household item. was that a trick question?

24.Who will pay for the bills?
depends who earns...but if we both did, we'll split it accordingly of course. i'm not a leech and neither is he

25.Are you ready for married life?
not at this stage but later of course.

26.Will u always be true to your wife/husband
Y.E.S

27.How many kids do u like?
2. depending how painful childbirth is

28.Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
diamond wedding...diamonds are a girl's best friends...nicole kidman said that n i believe her hahahah

29.What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?
french, italian, malaysian, indonesian (balinese), chinese, thai.....etc etc...kaye..u reading this?

30.Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
blu ray baby!


i tag..........kaye....vincent....yamcha gang..you know who u are....don't runaway! come back!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

CHRISTMAS

Amsterdam for Christmas! Heard there's tons of stuff to seeeeee

then maybe head down paris for a couple of days =) pretty place...

=)

Monday, October 27, 2008

VoilĂ , I decided to write another blog post.
While I was reading my compulsory French book... I came across an extremely nice sentence; I'm going to share it with everyone here. If you want a translation, try to find one yourself. Don't ask to explain it to you.

' La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort. '

I finally have some holidays! I'm so happy, now I can do whatever I want. OK, not everything, but still a lot. Luckily we don't have excissevely lots of work! We still have a bit, but it's not too time-consuming. I know that I don't update the blog frequently, but hey... I have a lot of work!
I started reading the book 'Twilight' in English, and personally it's worth reading it; not too difficult.
Although I don't understand some words, I can still grasp the general meaning. And that's the most important. Even sometimes when I am reading a book in my native language, I don't understand every single word. Some words are so far-fetched, uncommon and have different meanings which are barely distinct. Why do I need to know them actively?
Even though I don't know them, you will still meet me with me blissful smile.

As most people here already know, next summer I am coming to MALAYSIA! I will visit my dear friend there and I hope to meet a lot of nice people. In order to have a cheap ticket, I have to purchase it as soon as possible. Probably I am going to buy it as soon as this week! So then it's 100% sure that I will visit Malaysia. I am really looking forward to it...actually I can't wait. I hope the ticket isn't overpriced though I think it won't. It will cost me at least one €1000...and that's a lot for me (for the people who can't convert: €1000 = rm5000). First reaction= :O
The amount of money that I possess is limited. I have worked a lot to accumulate €1000, but I know It will be an enjoyable experience.
The strange thing is...my mum doesn't really encourage me to undertake this project. She doesn't want me to go ALONE so far...because I'm (according to her) 'too young'.
Oh well, they will let me go eventually.




Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Check it out

Dr Vincent Damen = DVD

hahahahahahahahahhahhahahahahahahaha

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Tagged...by Yen

RULES:

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
2. Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse (u know its true wat sook says, how on earth can u force someone to do the quiz?? maybe they got the death note of tags lurking around as a watch dog) .These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by: YEN

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
:: First, I would tend to be very disappointed...physically I would look sad, depressed and dispirited. Later I would try to be happy...but eventually I'd still take revenge. I don't know how yet...suggestions?

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
:: I want to be a doctor travelling around the world and helping people.

3. What is your dream?
:: I want to be happy and to possess anything I fancy. And...cfr. second question =)

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
:: I would buy everything I ever wanted to have! Perhaps I would give a little bit to charity since I am such a benevolent person. ;) Nah, I think I'd just travel a lot and buy a Porche (Ok, maybe ten Porches).

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
:: No, I won't! Only if the friend would be a girl and if she would fall in love with me too, then there would be a very small chance I would fall in love with her.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
:: You can't really love someone if that person doesn't love you back. However I think the feeling of being loved is a little bit more pleasant that loving someone.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
:: Well, I don't care how long it will take, I will wait till 'she' is there for me.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
:: Probably I would try to stop liking the person...I don't want to cause any trouble. If the two are happy together and if the girl doesn't like me (at all), then I don't know why I'd still keep liking her.

9. Do you think the world would be better off if everyone has the same religion/ethnicity/ etc?
:: NO! I don't think this is true. There should be diversity in the world. If everyone would have the same religion/ethnicity/etc., then everyone (of every single country) would look almost the same. Would you like that?? I think it's interesting to meet people who are different!

10. You see a 50 year old man entwine arms with a girl about the age of 20+ and find out they are gf/bf. What are your first thoughts?
:: If the guy is fat and ugly: Omg...What's wrong with the girl? If the guy is rich: smart girl! If the guy is good-looking (to girls): Good choice, girl! If the guy is rich and good-looking (to girls): Wow...well done! If the guy is fat/ugly and rich: I pity you, girl. Why do you do this? And I'd feel compassion towards the girl....

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
:: Hmm, probably still studying and almost finishing medical school.

12. What's your fear?
:: I never want to lose my best friend. =)

13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
:: I first listen to the radio and when I like the song that is playing, I stay in my bed. If I don't, I just turn the radio off and stay in my bed.

14. Would you give all in a relationship?
:: Yes, of course! If someone doesn't do that, the relationship won't endure!

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
:: I would choose the one I like most, the one who loves me most and the one who looks the best.

16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
:: No, I can't forget just everything. If that 'thing' is the most horrible, heinous act a person can do, I won't forgive the person.

17.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
:: I like both. It just depends whom I am with and what she feels towards me. I only want to be with someone if she really loves me; if I know she does. This is not easy to find, but once you have found it...you don't want to lose it anymore.

18. If your girlfriend/boyfriend told u that she/he is actually a princess/prince, what will u do?
:: I would be happy for I wouldn't have to work anymore! Hahaha! And I would be famous...cool!

TAGGED

RULES:

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
2. Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse (u know its true wat sook says, how on earth can u force someone to do the quiz?? maybe they got the death note of tags lurking around as a watch dog) .These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by:: Kaye

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
:: I will first put poison in his food, then later I will slowly watch him die, record it and post it up on YouTube where I'll make my fortune as the best horror movie director.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
:: I'd be able to be famous singer/songwriter/producer =)

3. What is your dream?
:: World domination

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
:: I will rule the world hahahhahhahaha...... nah I'd travel the world in style...and also sorta rule the world.....I mean..I hv so much cash..so you mean USD or Aussie dollars or Singapore dollars?? which one?? I want POUNDS.


5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
:: It depends...if my best friend is a girl..then..erm...no....like..duh!!!


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
:: both...I'd go with both.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
:: As long as I do not hv wrinkles heheheheh.....

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
:: I will back off. You hear that all you other bf/gf/husband/wife snatchers!!! BACK OFF!!!

9. Do you think the world would be better off if everyone has the same religion/ethnicity/ etc?
:: It depends.....it's a very subjective question.

10. You see a 50 year old man entwine arms with a girl about the age of 20+ and find out they are gf/bf. What are your first thoughts?
:: He's rich..she's enjoying his money hahahahahhahah

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time.?
:: Living my dream

12. What's your fear?
:: COCKROACHES....ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww oh yea...and also, very very weird ppl...believe me..i've met TONS n they don't leave a very nice aftertaste. *shudders*

13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
:: i think....what time is it?


14. Would you give all in a relationship?
:: yes..i would..if the other also felt the same.

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
:: erm..what sort of question is this? what sort of ppl are there 2 ppl?? i mean, if i feel in love with a murderer and a saint..of course i'd choose the saint...i mean..be more specific!!

16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
:: It's not easy to forget ...try forgetting someone 5 mins ago...u can't forget that easily that goes for ANYTHING in this world...so ppl tend to misunderstand the forgive n forget... i don't think it's completely forget as in, you really never thought it existed, but rather, that the matter doesn't bother you anymore whenever you meet that person..

17.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
:: it depends who i am with. if he's a gem of course a relationship, if he's an asshole..PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE

18. If your girlfriend/boyfriend told u that she/he is actually a prince/princess, what will u do.?
:: ohh goodie! we'll live happily ever after hahaahhaahaha THE END

Help for everyone!

Ok. I hope this will help a bit. Cheers!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Violin Piano classes Subang Jaya

Hihi,

Violin and Piano classes available in Subang Jaya. Leave me a msg at the shout box or better yet, call me 019-2671239.