I believe

I believe that everything happnes for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Marilyn Monroe


Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. YOu have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what isn't, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give to you. Hopefully, people realize great things whe nthey come around and don't lose something real. Always fight until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

Marian Mrowca

Heartless

Some people are just so heartless

Selfish, heartless

Je Me Souviens

I love this song by Lara Fabian...we both loved it. here's the youtube link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6BZFz4wh5g

French...english translation

Je Me Souviens.....I remember

White lily flowers under a crystal blue
Walks in a star-shaped snow
Maples of colours of a fatal passion
I won't forget anything at all
I remember

Odours of a forest that a beautiful lake reveals
Reflections of a large fire on our pale faces
An intense light by boreal nights
I won't forget anything at all
I remember

I love your poems, your heart, your liberty
You are the only land where
My soul was placed

An accent nobody knows the secrets about
A French who springs in forgotten words
A inimitable way of singing
I won't forget anything at all
I remember

I love your blasphemies, your faith, your dignity
You are like an island
That we can't leave

I love your poems, your heart, your liberty
You are like an island
That we don't want to leave

Landscapes that mix with more than perfection
Pictures that nature won't repeat again
The impression of having entered the garden of peace
I won't forget anything at all
I return

A new hope

In this moment of my life where I am constantly grinding my teeth, waiting for the outcome of something so utterly important to me, a recollection of a certain truth appeared to me.....

LOVE CONQUERS ALL

And after all that's been said and done, I know it to be the truth. The truth about man's very existence and it will be the saving grace of mine.

Love conquers all.....no matter how grand or how insignificant, war or peace, love always pulls through, even unto the very ends of the earth.

It really does.

La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort

La distance n'est rien quand on s'aime aussi fort. '
someone once quoted this to me a long time ago.
It is true, distance is difficult in a relationship. But for what it's worth, we've been doing pretty well in this relationship given the circumstances. There will always be another mountain to climb, always another ocean to cross.....but love conquers all.

Life is not perfect. The humans who live it is even less perfect....but we have something special within ourselves and that is forgiveness and compassion. The ability to forgive and to overlook a person's flaws is possible only through love.

And without love, what would this world be.

There are three things which are the bane in life......faith, hope and love....but amongst the three, love is the greatest of them all.

For what is a man's worth if he has not known love?

My all

A chanced encounter once saved my life. Saved who I am inside. Brought me new joy and happiness. It was supposed to be forever....it was supposed to go on forever. Didn't we say it was forever, through thick and thin?

But, alas, my world is crumbling down, falling and falling away. I am dead inside and only you can make me feel alive.....
If memories are all I'll have, that is not living the life we've envisioned at all.
I want more than memories....I want more than pictures...more than words.
I want the person more than anything else in the world....and it's killing me inside knowing that it may never ever be.
I am dying, fading away slowly as the days wears on.....
Slowly as the time ticks on without you.

How can I go on? How can I live my life as passionately as I used to, without you by my side.
Everything that we've been through, everything that we've shared.
Do you not know how important you are to me?
Do you not know how my world shines brighter than before with you in it?

This is all I have left, and all that I am.
I am left with nothing.

Contemplations

Not too long ago many thoughts began running through my head, flittering playfully about in my mind. And the more they flitter, the more it seems as if a very pronounced headache was about to appear.

With so many conflicting problems and worries abounding, having been there for awhile now, it keeps pressing me and pushing me to the only direction I can see as to solving everything.

But it isn't going to be easy. The road less travelled is never easy.

And so begins the season of plans and schemes, not really sure if any of them is 100% foolproof.

It did seem scary at first. Very very scary. A new place...a foreign place. Will I be able to cope with the demands and whimps of such a life? Did I poccess it? So many questions.....questions which I could not even begun to answer.

Life here now is not that peachy. I am slowly slipping into my own reverie. Transending into my own dark and shadowy abyss. I am falling and falling into my own nothingness.

They pushed me so hard. They don't even know.

I need the sun.
I need to breathe.
I need to get away from it all.

Everyday I brace myself for more dread. More misery. More pain.
The pain that never seems to go away but only to drive itself deeper into my soul.

My soul....my precious soul.. How I saved you over and over....

I need to get out for my sanity. I sanity which is slowly dripping away like the drops of a waterfall which once was. Trickling slowly into the depths of the earth, into the soil where it disappears from existence.

But I have my sunshine, always shinning down upon me from above. Though dark clouds may hide you , you always managed to overcome them all.

So I give myself 2 years in hopes of greener pastures. Pastures where there are no wolves stalking me....waiting to pounce upon my every movement. Waiting...just waiting....for the right moment.
To a place where I can be with my sunshine eternally.


Also, (this is really beautifully written)
A quote from Colin Monteath's book 'Under A Sheltering Sky'

Chance encounters change lives. Close friends, passing aquaintances and even characters who emerge from old books often leave footprints across my heart. By opening mysterious doors, the influence of others has inadvertently altered the direction of my life.